The Gay Chronicle Of A Gay Make-up Artist ,I am changing

So It’s been a minute since I have felt like there may be a possibility to find love or even be in a relationship .I just  gave up totally on it although I still have meaningless sex with people and can take care of myself with porn LOL .Lately I am feeling I need more a real relationship more than just sex a friend ,lover ,someone to share my life with .Especially at this time when Equal rights have come such a long way .Don’t get me wrong sex is great but as I get older I feel my views are changing for the better .I want more and I’m not scared of taking the chance. There are possibility’s for love and happiness with another man and I believe there men that can be faithful .I can’t believe I just wrote that Omg LOL.