Im A Mess

This summer I actually thought I have maybe have fallen in love with someone although there were so many red flags I ignored like the fact that it would be a long distance thing.The fact that I would have to move to a place that I was not really a fan of .The fact that he was younger than me .I think its me the most of the time im not ready plus my situation is not that good at the moment I want more well I always want more theres no question about that .I want to be in love have a great relationship but I need a man that is motivating  and powerful to fight me and take me on emotionally and mentally .I still believe that I may find that and I believe in love .